I Want an Apology!


The fact that I want an apology has been consuming my thoughts the past few days. I feel like I have been mistreated. I want that person to recognize that they have done me wrong and offer an apology. Is that too much to ask?! -YES

In my mind, I have forgiven that person. I know that I am called to forgive people just as God has forgiven me. But, I am still hung up on the fact that they have not apologized and I am holding that against them.

After much deliberation with my husband, he has helped me see that I need to move on. I need to get over the fact that this person has not apologized and accept the fact that they may never apologize. This does not mean that I have a right to act any different towards them. I need to show them love not based on the conditions that we are presently in but instead, based on how Christ showed me love when I did not deserve it.

I know that because "God gave His Son to win; His erring child [me] He reconciled; and pardoned from his sin." But, so often I think I make too little of the Gospel. The fact that Jesus laid down his life for me because he loved me is true but he did this when I did not love him! Christ died for me while I was an enemy of God. When I find myself thinking about God's love, I am so overwhelmed. I don't understand why He would do what He did. God's love is so rich and pure. And my love is so tainted and conditional.

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell;
It goes beyond the highest star,
And reaches to the lowest hell;
The guilty pair, bowed down with care,
God gave His Son to win;
His erring child He reconciled,
And pardoned from his sin.

Oh, love of God, how rich and pure!
It shall forevermore endure
How measureless and strong
The saints’ and angels’ song.

When hoary time shall pass away,
And earthly thrones and kingdoms fall,
When men who here refuse to pray,
On rocks and hills and mountains call,
God’s love so sure, shall still endure,
All measureless and strong;
Redeeming grace to Adam’s race
The saints’ and angels’ song.

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade;
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry;
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.

 
For over a month, I have been listening to that same song every time I get in my car. The lyrics remind us so vividly of the love of God. The verse I made bold, is by far my favorite. Take a minute to read it again. You would think that after meditating on God's love for over a month, my reaction to the present situation would be a little different. But instead, I continue to treat people the same way they treat me. I need to constantly be reminded of the Gospel.

Alas, here are a few pictures of Jude. Who now has his first tooth! I am reminded of God's love though my precious son.



















God is so good to us. He has treated me far better than I deserve. Because of this, I want to treat other people far better than they deserve as well.







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